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In most of my writings I start typing without knowing how the story will end we kter awy I write only coz I am afraid that one day ill lose my talent or ill forget the passion I have 4 writing similar to what happened in many other things in my life
May b also I am clinging to the only thing that I am doing only 4 myself and the only thing that is left 2 me
For sure I am doing many other things but writing have always been so different none of those things gave me the same feelings I have when I start typing
I do have a job but it never gives me this feeling and it will never do I tried to love what I am doing but I failed I couldn't
I took salsa lessons well its fun I have to enjoy the music first then I should let my body deal with the music... nice and fun but I didn't feel it
I love reading but I am reading only to be better I am reading to learn
I am feeling this way when I am reading a book however I enjoy reading but 4 me at the end it is something helping me writing in a better way
I also do love music we every single kind of it and I do have a taste in the music I listen to
I watch movies and I love the way these people are creating and documenting

In all the previous things there were Those creators who wrote books created music made films and I am just a recipient enjoying what these people r doing it is so different when I am writing I feel then write then I read back
So I am the sender and the recipient we sa3at another recipient involves fa I become a sender to many others thus I become productive and who knows may be inspiring
Nothing can be compared to what I may feel when someone likes what I am doing we 7ata da I am not dreaming of
I am documenting 4 myself all what I am going through now and aked one day ill look back to all these topics and who knows where ill be or what ill be doing
So as I long as I am living as long as I am feeling as long as I am thinking ill always be just here writing...