Out Of Reach
have u ever notice that the hardest of all feelings is not usually the negative ones.
it's not when u miss someone,nor when u feel abandoned.it's not always failure nor even loneliness.
Although those examples might sound unbearable for some but for me the hardest of all feelings is just when u feel nothing at all.
when you open ur eyes in the morning and feel as if u wake up in yesterday- which was actually the day before.Not because you do the same things,because probably u dont,it's because u no longer feel a change even in difference.
you go to work,you are too busy to ask urself what's wrong,and when you get back home you are too tired to wander why you are not ok.
you hang out wz friends,whether u talk louder than you can hear or u just lean ur back and sink in ur chair watching.
the truth is that u r not watching,u r not even looking,ur head turns on the mute mood,and ur eyes start wandering wz anything that moves-wz ppl passing across u or wz lips muttering silent words
it's not easy when u play ur favourite song and u dont feel the same passion for it,when u hold a pen and u dont find the eagerness to express,when someone tells u that he loves you and u just cant answer back
ur words are broken and ur ideas are too fast to follow,ur feelings are numb and it's always too loud outside that u no longer hear urself.
you force a tear and then remember how hard it is to cry when u 've become all of a sudden empty
it's too hard when u forget how a special moment felt or how a meaningful word
sounded before.
when you look at an old picture and cant remember what were u laughing at or to whom.
the hardest of all is when a barrier stands between you and urself and no matter how hard u try,u've just become out of ur own reach.
